I miss blogging too. I want to be able to comment on my bloggy buddies sites and link up to everyones awesome parties.. but I cant. Im in bed by 10:30 and even then I wake up grumpy because I didnt get enough sleep. And the gym? Pffft.. whats that? I havent been in a week and I feel horrible. I just dont have the time. At all.
Last week was my first week ‘back to work’. My moms bestie asked me to help her with a ‘special project’ for two weeks.. so I agreed. I was nervous and scared and stressed. Know what happens when you combine all three of those things? Cold sores.. right on the corner of my mouth. Its ridiculous and Im over it and it needs to be gone. [Yes.. its still hanging around!]
My first two days were busy. I was working and enjoyed what I was doing and the kids were fine at daycare. I even made delicious crockpot enchiladas [holla.. thanks Jessi!] on Monday and felt like supermom.
Then Ryley on Wednesday started to get cranky. She had a melt down on Thursday when I dropped her at daycare because she didnt get to shut the car door. I mean melt.down. She threw herself down in the parking lot and cried. When we got inside she ran back towards the front door to try and get back to the car.
And I get it.. she misses our routine. And I do too! I miss them and worry and stress every minute Im at work. It makes me sad that after I pick them up from daycare we get maybe 3 hours together before they go to bed. That breaks my heart. I want more then that!
Work. I spent the first two days working on a special project they had.. and then I was sent to the file room. And Ive been filing away. I dont mind it.. I just dont enjoy it. But its easy money and we need that right now.
I do work with some pretty awesome ladies. My moms bestie makes me laugh like crazy and the other ladies are nice. Plus on Friday we ordered Mexican food. And not any Mexican food.. the best Mexican food in town. They make a two foot taco! Thats right. Friday was also casual day.. that kinda made me happy.
I dont know how working moms do this. You guys are amazing. I love you working moms.. every single one!
But I dont know if I can do this all the time. This work thing. I think that it would be great financially if I worked full time. We could pay off our debt [yes we have debt.. hello student loans!] and start saving money for a house. I have a degree and Im reminded of that every month when I make the payment. Im also reminded that I got the degree in order to get a better job. And I have no job. I feel selfish. I feel like I should be doing something to help our situation. But my kids are far more important then buying a house right now.
What Im trying to say is I dont have it all together right now. And Im ok with that. We got through week one without any major battles [besides the car door incident] and hopefully week two flies by. Oh.. and Im not going to have a menu this week. The sheer idea stresses me out even more. Dont worry.. I wont forget to feed the kids. I just want one less thing to worry about.
If you have a menu or yummy recipe this week please link it up in the comments below. Dont let me Debbie Downer post stop you from sharing your delicious foodies!
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